she explained,

Why am I committed to the belief that people do not change? because I actually think that I'm the proof that I'm not .. I'm contradicting. I'm always constantly changing, I'm not the same today than a few yesterdays ago . I believe that changing circumstances of life and let them lead you, but your essence is always the same.

Perhaps it's my defense mechanism not to believe in anyone but me.

fickle ya not tickle ya

Ou ayy lo dear readers (pfft, as if I have readers who follow). Okay, hello dear imaginary readers whom I assume they follow and really give a crap about my crappy thoughts and scribble it here right OKAY WHY AM I TALKING LIKE THIS NOW .

I know, I know my babies, it really has been such a loooong time I haven't been here. Days and months passed, obviously things happened. Should I state it or should I not? Let's just say I've never been better. Now, let's see where my mind leads. At the moment, I might save this as a draft of publish this, because I can't think of a title. ah well, for a start. I'm hungry and I wish I could feed myself with some of these, yummy ..

sepatu; from acne

and err,

People. yummy kan!

Part II

Related to my previous post, ortho-drama in action again. This is the most excruciating pain that I've ever encountered for the past three months since I got these shiny metals on after tightening it for the 2nd time. This time, I can't barely chew on anything. I had this big meal from Mcd without even care on how it'll go straight to my "junk in the trunk" but I end up throwing it all up because it was too painful.

I'm not over reacting.

Please don't label me as a girl who whines about how her road to perfection is killing her. This is what I want, I wanted the braces, so I have to deal with it !
but, what do I do when these kind of temptation comes ?




talk about bubble-god-gum ?

this is why I love modern art.


photog by Simen Johan

orthodontic drama

"You call me a bitch, as if it's a bad thing,"--

Istighfar Qaa. Bladihel.

I'm not insane. I'm not insane. I think my new metals can talk. They're very bitchy. Seriously.

betul, tak tipu.

Message Delivered

haii, cepat betul awak berubah hati kan?

I wanna thank you so much for making me feel almost every feeling that I haven't even thought of feeling before. For opening my eyes and letting me see the different side of me that I've never seen before. Also for making me irritate everyone around me cause I am truly overly obsessed with you. Making me do things that might have hurt you not knowing that I was actually hurting the closest ones to me.

I kept telling myself that it will all be worth it; but denial puts me in the same ending that I've expected. It was all a waste. I was sinking and I'm glad I'm here now, in this frame of mind. So, my most sincere and special gratitude goes to you.

I'm not puzzled any more, cause I found the jigsaw match-- and you're still the missing piece.

Hope you're Happy Now.

love,

tiqa